I'm back

I have really been slacking with my blog. Basically just wanted to fill everyone in on my life right now. I am currently living with my parents in WV but I am moving to FL at the end of the month to go to massage therapy school and live with my girlfriend. This decision to move has not made any one really happy other than my girl friend and myself. I thought I was going to go to college to be a journalist. Many factors led to me leaving college after one year. Gay bashing, my adhd, my anxiety, personal problems, and difficulty level. I do not regret one second of that year though. Through my first year of college I found myself as a person and a proud lesbian. I found friendships that will last a lifetime. I made memories. I found my true love. I had a year to explore everything that is out there. I liked what was out there. After another year of not living with my parents but also not going to school I realized how hard it is. But I still loved every moment of it. I had to make a plan. I wrecked my car and lost my job. Ever since my girlfriend moved to Florida in August I have felt like a piece of me is missing. The distance was tough and the only thing keeping me from true happiness. I had a few careers bouncing around in my head for months. The main two were Real estate agent or massage therapist. I decided I needed a career and that I would also continue my passion of writing on the side. There is a great school in FL for massage therapy. I made my mind up. And now I am just blindly following a road that I hope will end in happiness.

Truth is we were best friends, you were always confused, I knew what I wanted and that was you. Now you know but your not with me. This is something you might not even read.

Living young, wild, and free.

Sometimes I think people my age don't realize how young we really are. The most important thing to someone at 18, 19 should be their future. I feel I am the only one that sees that. Stop worrying about making someone your boyfriend/girlfriend. Stop crying over little things that in a year or so don't matter. This is your prime time. Be a little selfish and do what makes you happy and what is going to be best for your future what ever that may be.

Been a while

So, I have not blogged in almost 2 years. I find this incredibly concerning. I am working on my first year of college and so many interesting things have happened over the months that I should have shared. My mom is my own personal blog but she urged me to start writing again. I mean it is my passion right? So I am going to put at least one new blog up every week and hopefully the frequency of that changes. Lets see. :)

Words aren’t supposed to hurt right? Well first hand seeing a heart being broken to pieces by just a few words is powerful and eye opening. Think before you call names. Your words might be the last thing someone hears before they decide life isn’t worth living anymore.

The unforgiven Part One

*Crash* I open my eyes and dart out of bed, trembling. I turn my head and look at the clock, 4:03. Oh no... I slept in. I could hear the foot steps coming up the stairs. I braced myself. Thud, thud, thud, thud. 17 steps exactly. Thud, thud, thud, My heart races more and more each step. How could I have been so stupid? Thud, thud, thud, thud. Its been two whole days since I screwed up. Thud, thud, thud, thud, I wanted to go back in bed and hide under my covers like I did when I was younger. Thud thud. That was the last step. I could feel tears already rising in anticipation. Thud, thud, thud, He is stomping on the hard wood floor.. He is angry. I stared at the door knob. I watched it turn slowly in my head. It seemed my whole life had always been in slow motion like some horrible car accident that never ended in the sweet relief of death. The door opens and hits the wall in the same place it always does. Leaving that same whole in the wall that is left in my heart. He has been drinking, I could smell it. How could I have made this mistake. Such a bad mistake. He didn't even blink before grabbing me by the arm. His fingernails were never really long but it pierced my skin like a fresh needle. I could already feel the blood rush down my arms. I am so stupid why didn't I wake, I don't understand.....

Love is Love

I know the world has come such a long way.... Yet it seems we are so far behind. Discrimination is an ugly thing that will never die. Whether it is race, looks, religion, or sexual orientation. I would love to believe that one day all the hideous things on this planet would be gone, but I cannot be that ignorant nor naive..... I don't understand how gay marriage is still not fully accepted to this day... People always throw the religion card. But if people sat down and thought about it, marriage is about love, not religion.. People who don't even have a religion get married all the time. So why can't two people who complete each other, and love each other get married? Why does anyone care? True love is one of the rarest things to find. So if two people find it, why can they not celebrate it? People bring up the bible, many things about the bible are unconventional. It was written so long ago most of the things in it aren't relevant, And even if you do fully believe in the Holy book, there is no reason for you to push your religion on other people. A lot of people feel strongly against homosexuals marrying yet most of their hetero marriages are falling apart. I think everyone should just sit back and think if they really have the right to interfere with true happiness?